Lost song...

So it's been a long time coming. A buddy of mine taught me this song a LONG time ago and lost the lyrics several years back. I've since tried to rekindle them in my memory but alas to no avail. Tonight, however, I found the ORIGINAL, hand-written copy of the tune that my buddy wrote out for me. I only know it as "The Notre Dame Song." Namely, because a couple of guys from Notre Dame wrote the tune. At least that's what I was told when he taught it to me. If you are the author or know of the author please let me know. I'd love to know the story behind it. Anyway, here's the tune. I love it. Seems appropriate for where I am right now anyway... to quote another bud of mine "POSAS"

Enjoy!...

"Notre Dame Song"
-unknown

V1. Just say there was a guy who
Who really like you and
More than a feeling just say
Just say he love you
But the strength was never there
To let you know how much he cared

V2. Maybe he was self-conscious
So insecure in all this
When you're around him he's a wreck.
Maybe that's something you like to do
For waht you put him through
It was all for nothing.

C. When all he wanted was to
Be in love with you
But you just kept leading him on
Well come on, well come on
Somebody might love you

V3. Just say he was a friend who
you grew to be with
and was good to talk to whne you had the time
You never heard it in his voice,
All the times he said nothing

V4. Maybe you like having him wait at your doorstep
Take you to dinner and try to kiss you goodnight
You never noticed in his eyes
although he claims he never cries, and he does

C. When all he wanted was to
Be in love with you
But you just kept leading him on
Well come on, well come on
Somebody might love you

V5. Just say he looked like me and you never noticed it
And maybe he's leaving and it could be forever
Well you probably wouldn't care
'Cause it was like he was never there

V6. Maybe you should think some more
And see what you're doing, know all the troubles
and feel what you've lost
'Cause it would never happen again, even if I wasn't him.

Timing...

So... God's sovereignty seems to be carried out in his rule of timing. At least... that's one of my opinions related to the subject matter. I've been "in between" jobs for a while now and God has absolutely taken care of me- from providing for my basic needs to providing to my deeper needs He is my source. I'm going to be moving soon as yet another one of my roommates is getting married. Go figure. I'm looking into getting my own apartment, to the best of my knowledge I will be starting to work full-time next week. I'm excited. God is good. New chapters in life are fun... yet challenging. But He is ever-faithful.

Dependency...

Greggy-D

"God LOVES it when we take risks... it makes us depend on Him"

This is something that I've heard before. I know it's truth firsthand. Though it was brought up again in a recent conversation related to my future with my former boss here at the church where I've been working. The first decision I have to make is whether I stay in the area and look for a job (which is near to friends, and where I've made considerable connections over the past year), or move home to my folks place and look for job there. It's risky to stay here in the area. My money situation is almost nil... I don't have the next job yet. I know that staying here would make me more dependent on God than if I were to move home. For that reason... I feel like maybe I should stick around. It's where my network is right now too - which is considerable (at least to my advantage).

At any rate... I was praying this morning for God to just provide for me. He is and shall... I need to depend on Him more. Just ten minutes ago or so... I got an offer for my taking on another student in private music lessons. God amazes...

Thank you for your faithfulness, Jesus. Give me the faith to take risks for you.

Joy Robber

Greggy-D There is no reason for a "blah" day. Today may have felt that way, but there is no reason for it. There is plenty to be excited about. I take joy in the sheer fact that I am heir to the throne; a son of God; His creation... sometimes my joy is still a decision. If I don't decide upon it I may leave room for my joy being stolen by the deceitfulness of the Evil One. I give in. Believe his lies, but truth prevails and I decide on joy. Life's "mediocrity" is no more than a lack of vision... a miopia, focused only on the shorthand and not the eternal. My purpose in life is bigger than I can realize on any given day or series of days strung together. I am loved eternally and infinitely. So much that my creator (let alone that He also created EVERYTHING)... gave his own life so that I could be with Him.

Jesus, I am yours. You are the joy giver, and it is you whom I decide upon.

Nothing beats a road trip with some college friends. This is from our day hike to the summit of Half Dome in Yosemite. The line going down the middle of the rock is a mix of cables and people :-)

Bruce, Kelly, Ben, and Myself. We made it! Whew... tiring and stressful! 

I made it to the top of half dome! Nothing like snow caps in June! 

Going down was SO much easier than coming up... even as intimidating as this looks! Those trees below are probably at LEAST 30 feet high.

Practicing the pursuit of God.

Greggy-DSo, I'm realizing tonight (after having some distractions removed) how I have been trying to fill the companionship that has been lacking between me and God...with people. Sometimes it's good to take a hot bath to relax the body and let the mind meditate... to just "be still and know that I am God."

I feel like my pursuit of other people would be much more fulfilling if I was already fulfilled. I could serve and love them better that way. I need to practice pursuing God, to learn more about how he is constantly pursuing me, before I may adequately pursue others for whatever the relationship may be: friends, family, or even romance.

Help me to heed to your gentle, loving call, Jesus.

Embrace the mystery; Finding oneself in being lost

I just watched The Motorcycle Diaries tonight. Wonderful movie. It's the kind of thing that is great to watch with friends, but at the same time makes you want to be by yourself to have some serious introverted reflection time.

It makes me wait with much more anticipation for our road trip. I leave in about a week. I'm actually a little bit nervous. I don't know if I'm ready, but I'm also excited to go. I hope that me and my friends don't get on each other's nerves. 12 days is a LONG time to hang out with anyone.

I was hoping to write some more tonight, but sleepiness is setting in and my thoughts are eluding me. As far as the title of this entry... I hope it kind of speaks for itself. I'm looking forward to losing ourselves on purpose in the wilderness in Yosemite, but thinking that I'll find myself some in doing this. We should have a blast. I don't know that I've ever done anything like this and it should be quite the adventure.

phosphor bronze...nickel wound...

Greggy-D

Recently, I've replaced the guitar strings on my electric guitar and acoustic guitar. It's quite refreshing. I need to write more. Music is such a release for me... as is writing. I think I find myself or at least the core of who I am in those things.

I think one of the humbling things to know in life is that there is always more. I could look at where I am and be totally dissatisfied because I'm not "there" yet. Not seeking righteousness, not pursuing to serve God and others, not having carved a path or figured out exactly what I want in life...

In all these and more if I begin to think that I have arrived or have achieved "there" than please, someone humble me quick. It gives me a strange hope to know that I won't attain perfection on my own. That there is always something more...

I await eternity with great expectation.

I will see Jesus and I will live out all my days with Him. Both here and there. Heaven and eternity are the "there" that these days press ever towards. This life is but a breath.

Belated birthday...

Greggy-D
It's been over a month... That's too long for sure. My health came back to normal from the ear infection stuff. It's the kind of thing that would be like watching grass grow. Little by little until you are facing a different reality - in this case a very positive one. My birthday was exactly a week ago today. My golden birthday to be exact. Twenty five on the 25th. It carries a sort of "weighty-ness" to it. It was a good day. Birthday lunch with the youth staff and a dinner with friends. I'm keenly aware of my mid-twenties state though.

I haven't had a "Happy New Day" in quite some time. I miss those roommate bonding moments.

I'm not exactly where I thought I would be by now which is ok, but sort of not either. I'm in the midst of "carving" a path right now. The next step decision is soon approaching. Faith Community Church has offered me the position of staying on for two more months and I have accepted.

I guess some of the latest exciting things are:
Youth Sunday is coming up this weekend, and also a crawfish boil.
Summer backpacking trip to Yosemite N.P. with some buds.
New Headlamp and I won an auction on ebay today for some backpacking cook-gear.

Faithfulness and discipline are things I always need more of. G'nite

All things new...

Greggy-D

Middle ear infections in both ears. Early, early signs of what could turn into pneumonia. That's what I was told yesterday from a diagnosis. Started antibiotics, though today my right ear has felt like a balloon was inflated behind it the whole day.

I feel like God is doing a lot with me right now. New passions, new health, and a new heart. I'm priveleged to serve the same creator of me as the Creator of all. He knows best how to make all things new.

Music speak

On kuhf tonight they played "La Fille Aux Cheveux De Lin" by Debussy. Indeed this is the sound of my soul's heartbeat tonight. If the depth of my emotions could be expressed through notes... this would be it.

For right now at least...

as with life, things keep changing.
Greggy-D

Latest work...

Greggy-D

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the moisture…
welling up out of this soaked-sponge concrete
Embraces my bare feet;
like a soothing hug from this fog induced evening.
I answer to its calm repose

these streets have decided to rest for the night
save for an occasional stirring

I enjoy the peace.

the cleansing rain from earlier has quieted the birds for now;
It came and went without me even being aware

Tucked away in my cocoon of covers,
raindrops wiped away today’s happenings
Yet this damp concrete remains…

Still. Silent.

Here

Tired...

Greggy-D
So, I'm pretty tired tonight. Kind of having a hard time going to bed. My friends are on my mind and I wonder what the next step will be for me in this life. God give me wisdom.

Beauty...

Have you ever been in a setting where you are in the midst of thousands of candles? Maybe a concert, church service, or a vigil? Well... I was waking up to this sort of vision this morning. I know that in my experience, being in a setting like that... It can bring on emotions or a general "feeling" that is unique from any other time. I think God allowed me that vision to realize how proud He must feel and how HIS heart may emote when He sees millions of His children radiating HIS glory in the midst of darkness.

Beautiful.

God's faithfulness...

I've seen God's faithfulness in a few ways lately. I managed to make a road trip over the weekend and I came back home safely. I also have good health. Little things, that I'm afraid I take for granted far too often. Sunday morning on my way to Church my car broke down. Leaking antifreeze, a noise that I've never heard a car make before... I decided that I had to pull over. The hood of my car was only open for 30 seconds (at most 45 ;-) when one of the youth dads pulled in front asking if I needed a ride. There isn't any reason that He would have been on the road that early... save that he "thought" there was a meeting at church that morning. There wasn't one.

God is faithful

Got the car towed Monday and prayed about finances... we were afraid that it might cost in the 6-800 dollar range, but it was not. I was able to pay the bill out of pocket at under 200 bucks.

God is faithful

May you lean on Him and allow His grace to sustain you.

Greggy-D

Christmas family photo with my new digital camera. I love it!!! 

Cute couple. Even without the laser level;-) 

Ahh... fresh palette knives from Santa Claus. Who knew that woodworking tools could just as easily have come from an art supply store? 

Enjoying stories. Granddaddy seems to be getting a kick out of it! 

Jeff and Lisa with the Grandparents :-) 

Fun 'n' games after Christmas dinner and gift exchange.  

Jeff, Mags, and Lisa 

Corless, Jeff, Lisa, and Jerry 

Brian and Dad chattin' it up. Made up possible commentary..."Yep, we should draw names closer to Christmas"- Dad; "Hmm... Sounds like a good idea" - Brian 

Amanda and Grandmother. Say, "cheese!!!" 

Here I am looking at my "table gift." Yay for reading! 

Jim demonstrating how he can read in bed now with his "table gift" ;-) 

Jerry with his "table gift" 

"table gifts" 

"table gifts" 

Lisa and Granddaddy enjoying their "chat time" 

Here I am. Artistic pose. Hope you enjoy;-) 

So... this is my first time to ever have a blog. This is also my first official post. Hopefully, I will be able to use this site to post some of my photos online for those that wish to see them.